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THE JOURNEY
of how far we came, in words of mine.

It was all in His plans for me to study in Sydney. Now that I'm here, it's up to me to shine His light.

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FLY AWAY TO SYD
on the journey to Sydney.

4 years in Sydney is an awefully long time.
Catch me before I fly away, cause I'm having the time of my life.
Friends come and go, but the close ones never part irregardless of the distance.


Thursday, January 27, 2005
01:30

bliss comes right after a misfortune
its just another day. oh wells. :ct in the morning was full of shit.
we were actually made to rehearse the emergency drill as a class TWICE!
brought the dark chocs to class and share.
had fun during maths lecture.
sat right at the back, and the four of us played cards.
steph whined and it was pretty loud.
then matt played with her phone and it wasnt on silent mode! then everyone turned back to look at us!
-hides face
but its all these little things tht made me look forward to school everyday.
moral of the story: have fun in the lecture theatre, but dont make so much noise. :)


went for trg at tk.
felt a little funny and uneasy before tht.
over-sensitive i guess. sheesh.
made to do 2 agst 1. half court. me agst sulin & amanda.
was made to run A LOT! tiring :(
then played doubles agst mas & liying.
the score wasnt impressive, but i felt good. like finally
then agst belle & pam. the game was a little cocked up. :/
then we had to play singles!
-faints
pt was running 15 rounds round the block.
and i had CRAMPS AGAIN!
ran like super fast after sulin helped me with stretching my calf.
still feeling the after effects tho. :(
the end of training was saddening.
oh wells, i hope i'm really strong enough.
home with the 76 gang!


liying; hey, thanks for the m&m peanut butter and the letter. :) i'll definitely reply your letter. love you!




Wednesday, January 26, 2005
02:20

make life a celebration
well, tht's wht erica wanted to tell me before she left.


okae, today's sort of a freaky day. :/
i cunt sleep the night before, after all the events tht left me pondering and worrying.
tossed on my bed till bout 1plus am
didn feel as if i've slept.
didn go into the deep sleep mode.
felt as tho all the dreams i made came alive! -shivers
woke up even before 530. now this sounds terrible.
dreaded to go school...
cunt sleep on the bus AGAIN!


after assembly, found a packet of cola flavoured hi-chew on my bag.
asked if it was any of the badminton girls.
steph decided tht i should just take it.
after tht, we came to a conclusion tht someone left it there to poison me!
-laughs.
oh wells.
then the so called slacker group in class [matthew, terence, steph, me] decided to skip econs lecture.
and we actually stayed at the concourse to study.
chinese next.
got back our graded assignments.
wilbur and yanho actually wrote bout mrs ting!
hilarious! and we were arguing with her bout the contents of the compo.
during maths lecture, the four of us were sort of playing behind.
but we did listen to the lecture!
-nods head
had pe, ran 3.3km with lots of breaks in between.
then me, steph, shuyu, jiejun and wilbur decided to go gelare after such a hot day and run.
the rest of the class stayed to do banner, except some.
oh wells. -guilty face
met liying outside vj's bus stop waiting for sam.
met them at gelare too.
i shared an ice cream waffle with steph.
met matthew with his date there, and terence with his date too!
so happening sia.
shopped round parkway.
bought stuffs for a few people.
then homee.


i just realised something of which i was unaware of previously.
not really sure how to react.
-laughs
ask me personally if you wna know more. :)



Tuesday, January 25, 2005
02:49

a better tomorrow
bestie told me to say a silent prayer and all with be fine.
well, i just did it. and i'm really hoping it'll be fine.
-prays hard


had a lot of fun in school today.
basically, i was just slacking.
ponned maths lecture tog with steph, terence, matt.
then we had a st nicks bitching session in the canteen!
hell lot of fun. :)
had fun during chinese with steph posed as jiejun.
and even during chem lecture, where we were at the back just having fun.
oh wells, hoping tht tmrr will be another funky monkey day, with no more awkward situations.



Monday, January 24, 2005
02:10

shit. something's wrong with my msn messenger. oh wells.
juan; heyys. sorry for chatting halfway then liddat. oh wells, it should be an indication tht both you and i should study now! plus, thanks for the msg at 3am again. anw, why were you still awake at tht time. its super duper late! :)) see ya soon girl.


liying; thanks for msging and trying to cheer me up yesterday. we are both strong girls.and we'll be fine yea? i dont think you'll see this shoutout tho. but anyhow, i'll still try and give you your hello panda.


i guess i was really weird yesterday.
sort of surprised everyone and made them worried.
sorry!
slacked the whole day.
been eating nutella!
for breakfast and for high tea.
even after taking the horrible cough syrup.
obviously my cough has just gotten worse.


did some ironing of uniforms just now.
and guess wht?
i REALLY suck at doing chores.
tht's why i resent doing it too.
burnt my bro's uniform, the shirt.
i actually thought it was a wet spot, so i kept going over it!
anw, luckily there wasnt any hole on the shirt.
but still???
his friends will just say tht he has a lousy sister.
oh wells. :/


Saturday, January 22, 2005
23:26

special in a stupid way ((:
tht's wht yunhua say's of me.


crashed over at bestie's house together with trish on thurs night.
stayed up till 3 plus to do erica's present.
woke up at 620.
headed down to the airport.
saw erica. -like duh-
she gave us a merci chocolate and a butterfly.
the whole situation was really awkward.
everyone cried. i didn.
erica was acting strong in front of us, till she finally gave way.
sigh.


then the 6 of us, those tht's left in our batch, ingrid trish pebbs yupei pam me, headed down to bk for breakfast.
talked.
yupei and ingrid left.
the few of us headed to town.
sat at the graffitti cafe and talked again.
shopped, cause bestie wanted to buy this top.
then it was home for me.
had 5 hours of afternoon nap.


wanted to buy kinder-surprise for diana and give her on sat's trg.
but i realised tht it was hari raya, and most shops would be closed.
oh wells, too bad for her then.
realised tht i should cherish wht i have now.
and be nice to everyone when i can now.


today's training at hougang
belle asked me a weird qns before trg today.
"hows you and diana?"
i went like huh? wht did she mean by tht.
-laughs
i replied her something i the end. but i think i wasnt in a very suitable state to give tht reply.
oh wells, hope all goes well.
cause i'm having a really bad feeling.
as tho something is going to happen soon.
received a bad news after trg.
tried to stay happy, tho some of them saw me through.
went for lunch with them.
headed to tampines thereafter.
but i left shortly together with pam.


not in a mood for anything now.
maybe to chat so tht i'm feel better inside.







Friday, January 21, 2005
23:05

dont feel like blogging. tho there's so much for me to tell.


Tuesday, January 18, 2005
02:02

my stupidity! :(
i dno how to differentiate from the right and the wrong. and i dno if i want to be labelled a good or a bad guy. so much for trying to help out, when i only make a blunder out of things. i hate it when i have too many pressing stuffs to do. to many weighing stuffs to think about. but am i able to do anything? no. and i cant freaking concentrate now. its not like i'm not trying. i cant help it when my mind drifts away. esp during crucial moments or things tht is happening around me. maybe i should just drift back into my own world and not be bothered bout the things round me. maybe i should just do things with gut feelings and with my heart and not be bothered by how people will look at me alr. i'm sick and tired. why do i have to feel so pressurised now? why?


sigh. for those who are reading, i'm just venting my anger and thoughts tht has been compressed within myself for so long. and seriously, its just rubbish i'm talking bout.


Sunday, January 16, 2005
03:57

thursday
my day finished at 1020, left early to meet erica in town.
ponned school in a way, and i say carrie (?) at the bus stop
she was crashing hwa chong.
ate at nydc, sat and talked for very long.
took neos! and we headed to back to heeren to meet valen.
had to return her her portable radio.
at heeren alone, met per, dinah, bestie, joette, chow, doris, etc.
so happening!
headed back to parkway parade, to meet up with pam.
talked and talked again.
left at bout 7. home.


friday
missed og bbq.
went for hougang trg instead.
made diana go tot he sinseh with me first before headed for trg.
on the way to trg, we saw the 55 bus, but thought it was too crowded, so the both of us decided to take bus 25 behind.
then sam saw us and waved for us to board the 55.
the bus driver gave us attitude when we said we wanted to board his bus then. sheesh.
according to may yee, its super embarrassing.
met this uncle there. chatted with him.
when we were playing 3 vs 3, my right leg cramped twice!
unbelievable. first was my calf, then it my my toe.
in the end, i decided to take out my knee guard.
the 3 vs 3 was super hilarious, at the end of almost every rally, we ended up laughing.
ate dinner at hougang mall with may yee, shu juan, sam, liying, diana.


saturday [today]
trained in the morning.
lunched at yoshi at parkway.
headed home to sleep.
ended up having a slight fever.
bus-ed to sbh at 7-plus
played doubles with diana agst some sports school ppl.
played rubber and won.
felt like shit. didn even have the strength for smashes.
ended up playing drop shots most of the time.
thank goodness i was so fired up in the third set.
cause by the second set, i was already panting heavily.
felt bad. :((


how did i even get sick in the first place?
-starts cursing the virus passer-
i really dno wht to say or think now.
i think tht there are a few misconceptions going on.
and its so diffcult to clear it.
prays hard tht it will got off by itself.
but when do these things happen like tht?
wishful thinking on my part. :/


something happend during chem lecture on friday.
didn understand a single thing bout mole concept -- dilutions
me and stephanie were sitting tog. beside me was yan ho, the gep student from dunman.
when the lecturer asked us to do the examples, me and step were like completely lost.
and yan ho, who was playing with his phone the whole time knew how to do it.
smart ppl are just liddat. irritating.
and then something funny happened!
so embarrassing. :/
shall say it another time if possible.
gotta rest now. really rest!






Wednesday, January 12, 2005
23:32

depressed :((
fucked up. screwed my knee and back again.
cant do anything now.
just hope i dont think too negatively.
trying very hard to hide my sadness away from everyone.


the lectures and tutorials are okae.
except for my gp teacher, who is also pam's ct.
she sucks BIG time.
not really in a mood to say now, maybe the next entry i'll say more bout her.
my class, 05S44 is great too.
except for one or two black sheeps.


i obviously didn go for trg today. sigh. :((
went to ank library with chai.
was reading a book when i fell asleep waiting for her.
sleep until super shuang.
walked to the market to shop for knee guards for sam.
talked and talked.
felt so comfortable talking to her.
then its homee!




Sunday, January 09, 2005
04:26

dragon and tiger seriously dont click!
here i am trying to be nice and there he is making life more difficult for me. one moment friendly, the next moment, he thinks i'm picking a fight with him just because i raised a lil of my voice. i'm already trying my best and he's not even doing his part to communicate with me. FUCK! i hate brothers. older brothers especially. when its pple like him. all the crap of saying its nice to have an older brother! its definitely not nice to have one tht treats you like shit. only nice when he needs a favour from you. he seriously pisses me off.


now, i have no mood to blog bout all the fun and exciting things tht happened the past two days. all because of tht piece of shit!


Thursday, January 06, 2005
02:49

i've got so many things to blog bout but i dont have time!
anw, had a bbq buffet at marina bay with the badminton peeps.
mainly, sam, diana, shujuan, pam, jean, tiff, wanyun.
sat there from 530-1000
super full. the food was good and all. yummy!
the live prawns were fantastic
we were so sadistic, cause we kept wanting to prawns to jump cause they are suffering and all.
didn eat the crabs tho!
scared of allergy and those shit.
and as usual, sam didn scrub the crab properly. just like the veg during the vj chalet.
so there were like mud particles in the soup?
heard tht tiff had a stomachache tht night.
and diana felt like vomiting the day after.


day one of orientation in vj.
i left the house late and it was raining.
needed to meet chai at 620 at yck mrt.
walked there with my brother cause we didn see any bus!
then i still had one more block and an overhead bridge to cross, she called saying tht i should reach there in 3 mins!
i'm went running like a mad person.
bathed in the morning when it was cold, and i became sweaty!
took to douby ghaut.
saw the bus 36 left, so we thought we had to wait for the next.
then we spotted another 36 at the bus stop, and we ran again!
how nice for the first day of school heh.
i was in the orientation group of trojan; tristan.
and i found out like yvonne low was in the same group as me for everything!
how wonderful. :))
met new ppl there. and i guess we were all shy and all, so we didn really interact much.
learnt mass dance. one of the six dances.
and everyone was hyper!
the day was so long and tiring, slept during the talks!


second day of orientation.
made to run after the 76 bus again. thank goodness i got up in time.
phew.
had mass dances, games and other stuffs.
learnt bout the vj cheers.
stayed back to learnt the labamba (?).
headed to parkway with the badminton pple.
all 10 of the j1s, except tiff.
ate at bk, shared a x'mas whopper meal with belle.
we were making so much noise when the trojan ogls entered.
and then this ogl came up to us saying
"i know you are all from convent schools. but pls lower your volume...."
she talked bout how to behave in the canteen and during lectures.
like we shouldn shout across the canteen, like how we do in sn?
those were the days. really. i miss it.
and tht when we laugh loudly during lectures, we should just turn our heads behind and pretend nothing happened, so they dno who it was.
she talked in a really funny manner, but we know its sort of true.
continued to make noise in bk, while trying to shut up.
then its homee!


day three of orientation.
more mass dances, including the friendship one where we have to pair up with one of the opposite sex.
met my class, s44.
there were like so many from dunman high!
and stefanie and jasmine from sn were in the same class as me.
played games, something like dog and bones, but we have to be in paris with tied legs.
paired up with an ip student from mainland china called yufeng.
my number was called.
then i had to steal items from the other production houses!
i was stealing, then this guy was snatching it away from me.
then he bend lower than me.
when he used his power to snatch it away, his head knocked onto my chin!
its like ouch!!!
still felt the effects of it half an hour later!
then the 'immunity' gun was ruined into 5 pieces!!
we were like so violent!
left orientation early to met up with the badminton pple in the canteen before heading to tk to go tp for trg.


we were making so much noise, till diana and kexin felt so embarrassed!
then jean shouted in the canteen "where's my wallet?"
then me and annabelle were like luaghing away.
walked out of school noisy when we left orientation early?
continued to make noise everywhere we go!
even when we were stroking in tk!
laughed like nobody's business.
its like whenever we j1s from badminton meet up, we'll just go wacky, crazy and noisy.
headed to tp to train.
feeling shitty now.
think its cause of the mass dances.
and i didn even warm up!
my knee's weak, so does the whole of my right leg.
and even my back.
i just hope everything will turn out okae again.
i'm so scared now, when cheers nearing.
so does the 21st of jan.
:((


erica, my partner; i will love you always. now and forever. really miss the times we trained together. cause you knew everything tht i liked and needed. tho we are sort of 'weird' on court in terms of communication, but i feel tht you were always knew wht i wanted. i hate to see you leave. i really do. as promised, this is for you! well, i just hope tht we can always remember our times together, the good times on court especially. which will always be kept deep in my heart! love love!






Sunday, January 02, 2005
00:54

2004, what a year!
time flies, one year past by just like a snap of a finger.
it has been a really eventful year to say.
but it all ended with tsunami, which makes everything end on a low note.
making the future uncertain too.


so many thyings happened in 2004. happy and sad.
there was the
- injuries [back and knees]
- national champions
- family problems
- funny study sessions
- o levels
- graduation
- etc, etc.
an eventful year which made me grow wiser and sensible.
ten years in st nicks.
and now, i'm officially out of it.
the friendships made throughout the years there are countless and priceless.
it has been like part of my life, a family to me.
now, i'm all set to move on to a new environment, victoria jc.
i miss my bestie and yupei all a sudden!
not forgetting my classmates from 4d!


bestie; hey mate! we've been through alot together this year. especially the many times i need your strength and support this year. you've always been there for me whether its rain or shine. and i know tht you'll continue to do so even though we are heading for different paths in the future. hoping to spend more time together with you. time just seems too short whenever i'm spending it with you!



Saturday, January 01, 2005
12:26

every ending represents a new beginning
i forgot to blog bout something important yesterday!
after the movie, i realised tht the guy sitted next to ivan left his passport on the chair!
so i immediately got ivan to run towards the guy.
a good deed. hopefully to make up for all my sins.
-laughs.
the guy came forward and asked for ivan's name.
and he said he was from msia and thanked him many times.
but i mean, how can anyone be so forgetful with a passport.
plus, i actually found it on top of the compartment where we put drinks!


had trg today at vj.
left the house at 830 thinking tht the ride would be 1 1/2 hours due to traffic jam.
but i actually reached vj at 940! so early.
cause trg starts at 10.
played doubles partnering this tk girl called rachel.
apparently mr wong say i'm fast, so she has to keep up with me.
but like, when was i ever fast fast?
and he had to say it on a day where i cant really run.
then he told the other one partnering diana to be prepared cause she'll scold.
and he was like, you two can scold each other on court.
so funny ehh.
partnered diana after tht.
and this time, she pulled her thigh muscles.
really dno wht to say larr.


headed to queensway to buy shoes with wanyun, jean, sulin, liying.
they had to settle their embroidery thingy.
both me and sulin bought a new pair of shoes!
yay!
homee.
gna bathe now and head of for the countdown party at cheryl's house.